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College is a new world. Being in university now seems so surreal to me. But it's all real.

I entered university 5 days ago. I'm officially a university student now. And I was in for a shock. This new world is totally.. different. Well I expected that. But no matter how much I try, I could not really adapt to that change right away. During the first day, I didn't say much except when people ask me things. I tried to stay cheerful during the day to make new friends. It was a normal first day of school. But I still have that feeling of indifference. It felt quite lonely. I missed high school all of a sudden. Out of the blue, I felt the melancholic emotions I should have felt during graduation.

And it doesn't help that right now I feel kind of lost, like I've lost track of something. Everything is new, and well it's hard to start from scratch. For 7 years I studied in the same school, so I was already used to the rules, teaching styles, etc. by the time I got to high school. I had no problem balancing my studies and fun. I knew how each teacher does his/her teaching, I knew which activities would boost our grades, I knew which tests are okay to flunk and which tests to take seriously. But in uni it's a whole lot different. Some professors are just going to give quizzes, and when they do announce it, I don't know what the heck I'm going to study because we don't have an actual book to review. We need to do research on our own so we have other information aside from the ones they give during lectures. Of course I know that it's really like that, but for a not-so-studious person like me, it was harder than I thought it was. As expected, it's really hard to establish good study habits.

While most of the people at uni are very helpful to us freshmen, I'm still finding it hard to get used to university life. College is like a huge labyrinth, and finding the way out seems so difficult and tiring. I know I'll get used to it in a month or so, but for now I am disliking the thought of going to school. Oh well, I'm just going to do my best and try to have a good time. Hopefully, in a few months I'll be able to jump right back on track and be able to have fun living my university life.

It's June. The month that I like least. Ugh. >_<"

Here in my country, the school year starts in June. That's one of the primary reasons why I don't like this month. The first day of school always irks me, because it marks the start of stressful days and sleepless nights. Though school days are actually quite fun due to the presence of my crazy-slash-cool classmates, school works which leave you stressed out and lacking in sleep really annoy me. This year it's more awful, because I am now entering college and I would have to adapt to change again. New school. New classmates. New world. I have already met my blockmates when I enrolled, and though I was able to chat with them normally, the feeling of indifference is still there. After all, I'm not really the sociable type of person. It's scary.. I still would have to get used to a lot of things. That's why I'm really dreading the 8th, because that's when school starts for me.

My friend Mara finally updated her journal today. Haha. And she talked about the sad dream she had last night. Well I had a dream too, but mine was really weird. In my dream, it was already the 8th, and so school already started. My school has a mall located nearby and in my dream, I was there, waiting for time to pass by. I don't know why, because my schedule for the first subject during Mondays is in the morning, so I wouldn't have extra time off to go to the mall. And besides, the malls don't open not until 10:00 in the morning. So it was really weird. I was having fun walking around, then I realized that I had school to go to. It was already 12:00nn when I realized that, and so I panicked. I was about to head towards university when I saw that I left my bag somewhere. I remembered still having it when I went to eat at McDonald's, but when I got there I couldn't find my bag and the layout of the restaurant seemed different. I spent the remaining time just looking for my bag. Then my dream shifted. It was like moving to the next episode of the same TV show, because the content of that portion of my dream was almost the same. I was in the mall, but this time my family's with me. The day was Tuesday, and we were walking around the mall when I saw that the time was 10 (or was it 5?) minutes to 11:00 am. My first subject during Tuesdays starts at 11:00 am, and so I told my parents I was going to be late if we don't get there soon. Contrary to what might have been their reaction in real life, they were really calm and asked me to wait for a while, because we were waiting for something to get done. Whatever that something is, I don't know. But my watch continued to tick, and so I dashed off to go to my uni, not wanting to wait for whatever it is they were waiting for. When I got there, it was almost 11:00, so I hurriedly tried to find the classroom where we're supposed to have that subject. To my confusion, the classroom wasn't anywhere to be found, though I was pretty sure I was looking in the right places. I saw one of my blockmates and we hurriedly tried to find the classroom, but we weren't successful. In the end, we didn't find it, and I gave up on getting to the classroom on time.

That dream was really eccentric, but I think I get the message it wants to convey. I'm the type of person who, most of the time, goes to class late so I think my dream wants to remind me not to be late in my classes. After all, in college, lates do mean something. Haha. That's all. ^_^

I don't know whether I like rain or not. There are times when I don't like it, maybe because of the fact that I'm the type of person whose mood can be influenced by weather and rain gives off a gloomy atmosphere. On a practical note, rain can sometimes make things inconvenient. Having to bring an umbrella, getting your clothes and stuff wet, I find those things annoying. So I guess that's why I don't like the rain at times.

But there are also times when I do like it. Sometimes I like watching drops of rain fall down from the sky. I think it gives off the same feeling as watching clouds pass by during a sunny day. And when the rain brings a cool air, then it's much more relaxing to sleep at night.

This year it's a rainy summer. It's been raining even though it's only April. I know that the transition from summer to the wet season usually begins in May, so having it rain as early as April is well... kinda weird. It's really hard to predict the weather these days.

And today, I just had some rainy day misadventures. I went to the University of the Philippines Manila (or UPM for short, my chosen uni) earlier to apply for this Advanced Placement Exam and well.. I had some misadventures today which includes:

- Lining up in the wrong window
- Leaving the queue for the cashier due to non-usage of common sense
- Leaving Window 1 while the business was not yet done
- Looking like an idiot while trying to wash my feet at the fountain in front of Rob Manila (Midtown wing) XDD

( Details of my rainy day misadventures :)) )
Oh, what a day :))